"For you formed my inward parts; you knitted me together in my mother's womb. I praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Wonderful are your works; my soul knows it very well." (ESV) Psalm 139:13-14 This verse has been on my mind recently... I often say it over and over in my mind.…
"You have turned for me my mourning into dancing; you have loosed my sackcloth and clothed me with gladness..." - Psalm 30:11 "Every good gift and every perfect gift is from above, coming down from the Father of lights with whom there is no variation or shadow due to change." - James 1:17 Most of…
I am sure many of you would like to know how Jordan happened into my life. I think I have mentioned before to most of you that online dating never really worked out for me. I began to resent it, in fact. I had even almost resigned myself to be Jake's widow for the rest…
What comes to your mind when you think about the word (or hear the word), suffering? Some may have feelings of discomfort, fear, anxiety, because who wants to suffer? But, did you know that God promises us sufferings and trials? Romans 8:17 tells us that we are children of God and "heirs of God and…
I have struggled with this question for two years now-- who am I? Who am I now that Jake is gone? Who am I now that I am a widow? Who am I?! Let me explain... Becki circa 2013 died when she found out Jake did not survive the car accident. I died that night. Everything…
This Christmas season has been tougher for me than the others. I have constantly found myself down--when looking for new Christmas decorations, when decorating my house for the first time, when buying presents for everyone--you name it, it has made me feel sad. I have a huge hole in my heart. I have let myself…
I have been going back and forth on what to blog about today. There's just so much I want to say about this past year--year #2 without Jake. I have been blessed beyond measure, I have found my calling as a counselor, I have been hurt by people close to me; I am tired and…
To my beautiful, courageous baby sister, 23 years ago on the 11th of June, I became a very proud big sister. I don't remember too much since I was only four and a half, but I do remember how excited I was to finally meet you. I remember mom letting me listen to her belly…
I'm sure you've all heard this question (and, perhaps, even asked this question): why do bad things happen to good people? It's so easy to ask this question especially when you see so many good people hurting--young lives lost, miscarriages, divorces, sudden and traumatic losses, loss of a job, and the list just keeps on…
OK, confession time--For those who think I'm rock solid and exude enormous amounts of strength, hopefully this confession I am about to make will make me seem more human in your eyes--I am tired of being strong. I have been so focused on being the strong one that I have not allowed myself to feel…
