What comes to your mind when you think about the word (or hear the word), suffering? Some may have feelings of discomfort, fear, anxiety, because who wants to suffer? But, did you know that God promises us sufferings and trials? Romans 8:17 tells us that we are children of God and “heirs of God and fellow heirs with Christ, provided we suffer with Him in order that we may also be glorified with Him.” We will suffer. That’s the truth. Everyone goes through trials…through the storms of life. The past 3 years have taught me that no one is exempt. It’s not a punishment–sometimes life just happens. It’s the way we act that matters. And, in my opinion, sufferings are blessings in disguise (at least in my own personal life). You may not agree with me, and that’s fine.
So, why does Becki think sufferings are blessings? Because of what the next verse in Romans 8 says (verse 18): “For I consider that the sufferings of this present time are not worth comparing with the glory that is to be revealed to us.” This verse tells me that we belong in heaven and nothing can compare to that (even the trials we go through in life). When I think about sufferings being blessings in disguise, I can’t help but think about Laura Story’s song “Blessings.” I absolutely love this song, and it has brought me to tears many times. Here’s how the last few lines of the song go:
“Cause what if your blessings come through rain drops
What if your healing comes through tears
What if a thousand sleepless nights are what it takes to know You’re near
What is my greatest disappointments or the aching of this life
Is the revealing of a greater thirst this world can’t satisfy
What is trials of this life, the rain, the storms, the hardest nights
Are your mercies in disguise.”
When I first heard this song, I was speechless and overcome with emotion. It was shortly after losing Jake when I first heard this song. This song brought me comforting thoughts of God taking my hand, telling me to trust Him, and then leading me through the rain, the storms, and the hardest nights. As I reflect on these past 3 years, on the struggles and the blessings, I would not trade it for the world. I would not trade the experiences I have had. I would not trade the sleepless nights… the nights I would cry myself to sleep. I would not trade truly experiencing what it means and feels like to trust fully in God and lean on Him in everything. I’m not saying that I would not take Jake back. What I am saying is that I have grown so much spiritually these short 3 years–and that is so much more important than anything. My spiritual life is far more important… because I belong in heaven… we all belong in heaven. And NOTHING compares to that. I am proud of who I am today, and I know Jake would be too. And, you know what? Even though I would through the rain and the storms and the hardest nights, God showed me His glory shining through it all. So, yes, I do firmly believe that sufferings can bring blessings–as long as we choose to see them.