I am sure many of you would like to know how Jordan happened into my life. I think I have mentioned before to most of you that online dating never really worked out for me. I began to resent it, in fact. I had even almost resigned myself to be Jake’s widow for the rest of my life–and I actually was becoming content with this reality. I had to become content with possibly not ever experiencing that kind of relationship again. And, I finally reached that point of contentment. Mid-May 2016 I decided to reactivate my Christian Mingle account with really no expectations of anything happening. Then, on May 16,2016, this guy sent me a “smile,” so I thought, why not. We started messaging back and forth. I have to be honest… I was expecting the same thing to happen to me like before, so I kept myself at a distance and kept a wall around my heart. I didn’t respond back to him for a whole day one time…usually, in the online dating world, that could mean someone is not interested. I was just scared. But, Jordan kept pursuing me. And, I am glad he did.
We were chatting about coffee (and the fact that it’s the elixir of life… especially with hazelnut creamer), and Jordan stealthily mentioned that we should get some coffee together some time. Long story short, we decided to meet in person on Monday, May 23, 2016. He let me choose where to meet–he drove all the way to Lewisville just to make sure I was in a comfortable location…. because you never know who you are meeting, really. I thought that spoke volumes of his character. I remember seeing him pull in to the parking spot beside mine, and I looked at him and immediately looked down, smiling from ear to ear. We got out of the car… and I really don’t know how to describe it. Hugging him for the first time felt natural. Jordan and I have only known each other for a short time, but it feels like we have been together for a long time. It’s interesting… we just click. And, that’s exactly what happened that evening. Coffee turned into dinner (at BJ’s). I remember at one point that I looked around and realized that there were other people around us like at any restaurant. Anytime I am around Jordan, I become so entranced in our conversation that sometimes I forget there are people at the restaurant with us. Before saying bye, he wanted to show me a verse of a hymn that we were talking about (it was “When I Survey the Wondrous Cross”… beautiful words and a powerful meaning). He started humming it as I was reading the words, “His dying crimson, like a robe, Spreads o’er His body on the tree….” I about melted. Y’all know how much I love to sing… and Jordan has an amazing voice. I absolutely love singing with him. I knew in that moment I wanted to get to know him more. I wanted this to work out. And he did, too. So, we decided to go on a second date… on that Thursday, May 26, 2016.
We met in Lewisville again… this time at Olive Garden. We were no longer messaging on Christian Mingle because, of course, we had each other’s phone numbers by that time. We were talking via text and phone every day leading up to our second date. I love talking with that man. Again, I didn’t notice the people around us while we were eating dinner. I kept blushing every time I looked into those clear, blue, mesmerizing eyes of his. He even told me that he hopes he can keep me blushing like that every day. And, he still does today at times. We went to Vista Ridge Mall after dinner and just walked around… and held hands for the first time (*commence Becki swooning yet again*). Jordan really wanted to hear me sing, so we went back our cars in the Olive Garden parking lot and sang hymns. I know this sounds crazy to some of you, but whatever, I don’t care… it’s the truth. I fell in love with him at that moment (looking back on it, that is… I didn’t want to admit it at that moment). Our voices blend so perfectly together… and that’s like our relationship. We decided on that night to become an official couple (even though we did not make it Facebook official until a month later… mwahahaha! tricked all of you!).
Dating Jordan has been like breathing… easy… and of course an adventure. He has gotten me out of my comfort zone A LOT! He constantly makes me laugh (and you know how much I love to laugh). He is one of the most selfless, caring, godly man I have in my life. He never hesitates to be of service for someone, the Lord’s church, his family, and me. God truly has blessed me beyond all imagining with bringing Jordan into my life. He is amazing… and I love him so incredibly much. I try to memorize every single moment I have been given with him.
Jordan proposed on October 8, 2016 at the Dallas Arboretum (where we also had our engagement pictures taken… on a completely different date). We had a picnic – with copious amounts of cheese, of course. I wondered if something was up, but he didn’t propose at our picnic. So, I thought, okay not today, then. Then, we started walking a little ways and found a little nook with a water fall, fake grass, and a bench. It was a beautiful area. I had to sit on the bench because I had gotten pebbles in my boots… and Jordan even helped me. After putting the boot back on my foot, he all of a sudden got down on one knee in front of me and asked me to marry him. And, of course, I said yes. And cried happy tears. I never thought that would happen again… but it did. Once again, I was proven wrong. So, here we are… 21 days away from our wedding (on January 28, 2017 at 2pm). I love him more and more each day, and I am looking forward to the future with him… hopefully, starting a family together someday.
My journey continues still, and I hope that sharing this journey with you brings you joy and hope. It may not be you finding love again… it may just be finding happiness, finding rest, finding hope, finding joy… whatever it may be. My hope for you is that when you are given the choice between sitting out or dancing… I hope you dance (yes, I stole that from Lee Ann Womack). I hope you choose to keep on keeping on. I hope you choose to live.